Sunday, June 28, 2009

Drop

It's time for a musical interlude. Here is an amazing video, created by Spike Jonze for The Pharcyde. Enjoy

Awaiting My Release

Between dog-sitting and parenting duties, I have been away from my apartment for four nights now. I am looking forward to getting back "home," surrounded by my book and movie collections. Tomorrow I've been urged to contact a divorce lawyer to look over relevant paperwork. Talking to lawyers is never a pleasant experience for me, even if they're supposedly on my side. On Tuesday I have a doctor's appointment, solely to recheck my high blood pressure medication, and to ensure that I continue on my road to emotional recovery. Tuesday evening I will be back to care for Justin while Jen is at work removing more corn cobs from the innards of golden retrievers.

I'm looking forward to Wednesday, because I have made reservations at a hotel in Edmonds for two nights. Two nights away to read, walk along the docks and generally forget my responsibilities for a brief time. I've been told that I've earned this little sabbatical, and this time I would have to agree. Let's hope that the jacuzzi tub and fireplace aid in my attempt at relaxation. I'm hoping that I can finish reading The Light of Falling Stars close to my departure date, so that I can sink my teeth into another good book at the start of my break.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Back to Normal

Mother and son are back from their camping trip at Deception Pass, which also means that I return to my parenting duties for the next couple of days. Justin has soccer practice tomorrow. His group is called the "Hoppers" appropriately enough. He missed his first class, but it's not as if he had homework, or would even remember the simple directions that the youngsters are given to follow. His ability to follow directions has obviously improved since starting soccer, and it's fun to watch the toddlers run about for an hour. I get to be one of the proud parents on the sideline rooting him on, and exhorting him to pay attention to his couch. After soccer I may drop by Ravenna Third Place to browse their 40% off sale, and also to check on the status of the open position on the evening shift. I'm still hoping to get back in there in a fulltime position soon.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

These Days...

These days it has become difficult for me to blog regularly. It's not that my life is an empty vacuum. Actually, the situation is at the opposite end of the scale. I seem so damn busy, that I barely have time to breath. Some might say that I should pause to consider all of the various aspects of my life that I currently find myself in. I feel that if I stop to consider anything, I may just fall to the ground weeping. My life is still filled to the brim with things both wonderful and horrible (if one considers divorce a horrible episode.)

On Father's Day I attended a Mariners game with my son Justin. He liked the game, but he really liked the cotton candy and easy access to the candy that the young girl in front of him was eating. We left just before the 8th inning. The Mariners were ahead 1-0. Who could have guessed that Felix would give up a two-run homer in the 8th, and that the Mariners, of all teams, would come back to win in the 9th. Justin didn't mind. He exclaimed as we exited that he had fun, and -- as I predicted -- he was asleep in the car before ten minutes had passed.

On the good news front: I may soon have a full-time position at Ravenna Third Place. I had worked there for a few years before Justin came into my life. I'm not crazy about the idea of working solely night shifts, but I'll take what I can get at this point. I still have a few friends at the bookstore, and I actually think that I might enjoy the job a little more now that the Honey Bear Cafe is gone. The bookstore feels more like a bookstore now, instead of just an annex to the coffee shop with the free wi-fi.

Another wonderful aspect of my transitioning life is my new found love. She just can't seem to get enough of me, which is a welcome change. She's also a great cook, loves movies and books, and...well, you get the picture. There are good things afoot in my life, and for that I am thankful. Not thankful to any make-believe deity mind you, but thankful to myself for keeping my head above troubled waters, and being successful at being the real me when it counts (always!)

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Life Gets Better

Being a music aficionado, I often think of song lyrics to fit whatever mood I may happen to be in. Lately this tune by the legendary Graham Parker has had some significance for me. Life does truly get better when one has someone to share the ups and downs with.



In a few hours I'll be going to spend the night with my son. I'm still determined to have him stay at my apartment soon. I even asked him what he thought of the idea the other day, and he was positive about it. He's definitely starting to wonder about the whole "daddy sometimes stays somewhere else" thing. My biggest priority is always keeping Justin happy and healthy.

Last night I spent the evening with friends. I helped with a minor picture framing project, and was rewarded with a nice grilled chicken dinner. When I got back home at about 10:30 pm I relaxed by watching a few lectures from a Philosophy of Mind course, taught by Prof. Patrick Grim. I guess I needed to hear about occasionalism, materialism, functionalism and many other isms before being able to fall asleep.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Random Thought(s)

*Perfection has its faults too.

*Feeling happiness and sadness simultaneously is an odd feeling. One might imagine that the two emotions would cancel each other out, and a neutral state would emerge, but instead an off-kilter jagged feeling prevails. Blech!

*Puppies are cute. Kittens are cuddly

Monday, June 8, 2009

Post Birthday Post

I did it! I survived yet another birthday. I have now been roaming around this planet for 48 years and 2 days. I am nearing the end of my second marriage, after nearly 13 years of connubial bliss. Well, I guess "bliss" wouldn't be quite the right word. Bliss wouldn't be something that one would voluntarily choose to end. Recently I heard the line "I love you, I just can't live with you." I'm not sure where I've heard that before, but it certainly sounds recycled to me. At age 48 I am also the father of a wonderful three-year-old boy. My son Justin is just an amazing little kid, and my world has been expanded by having him in it. The best part of my birthday last Friday was hanging out in the backyard with Justin. There was a cool breeze blowing across the neighborhood, and we were enjoying ourselves by tossing Frisbees from one corner of the yard to another. Justin was very excited for me on my birthday. He wanted to do it all over the next day. He sang "Happy Birthday" to me, and had a hand in making the cake.

The Seattle International Film Festival is currently in full swing. Last year I had good intentions, but I only ended up seeing one film: Julia Sweeney's "Letting Go of God." I couldn't miss that one. This year I am faring much better. I have seen three films so far, with at least one more on the horizon. So far the countries represented in my film-going are South Korea, Japan, and Canada. I'll try and give a more detailed account of the films I've seen once the festival is complete.

This past Thursday I saw a live performance by Neko Case at the Paramount in downtown Seattle. I had always admired her voice, but wasn't a regular listener. After seeing her live I haven't been able to stop listening to her. Her natural vocal talents gives me chills. I had tears in my eyes after hearing her first few notes the other evening. The opening act was Jason Lytle, former lead singer for Grandaddy. I was quite looking forward to seeing him, but his show was a little unpolished, and subdued. It also would have been nice to hear at least one Grandaddy song.


Neko Case singing "This Tornado Loves You" from her latest release Middle Cyclone.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Explanations

It's been just over two weeks since my last blog entry. What has been going on in my life to keep me away from the keyboard? I'm sure all of you know how life has a tendency to get in the way of making plans. There are enough events, ups-and-downs, and emotional upheavals currently in my life to keep me busy for a while. My main task lately has been to keep from being overwhelmed by my current place on this tiny blue planet. To try and tread the middle path, as it were.

Meanwhile the weather in Seattle has been the type of secret that we like to keep from outsiders. Yes, that's right...it's rains here constantly. Actually the long gray days make these idyllic periods that much more precious.

There of more of my banal thoughts to come, but I must venture forth from my subterranean abode, and soak up some sunshine.